Hello friends!
Most recently the guy I've spoken of here on my blog Juan carlos and I have been at war with each other in an internet spat through emails and I must say he's finally angry people! I've never been able to get him to see clear that us being together and engaging in marriage would be a horrible experience for both of us. For me, I would be miserable because i know I would have only married him because I had pity on him, Not because I was in love with him. A marriage like that cannot work but I could never get him to see it that way. For him he would want to be intimate and affecionate and i just don't feel that with him, so he would feel bad because he couldn't be intimate with his wife without her getting discusted by it. But now people he is angry with me because he got tired of me being mean to him, but I say it's not my fault because no one put a gun to his head to stick around and wait on me.....That, my friends was his decision. I encourged him to move on, but he refused saying he'll wait 50 more years for me if he have to, but that's retarded, no one does that! So, most recently we've been arguing over the internet exchanging bad words to each other like little kids do, but I think this is great for the simple fact that he's angry and fed up now to the point that he'll finally realize that I'm not the one his heart desires and move on and find the woman that's suitable for him and his needs. Someone that will love him back. I don't love him like that. Don't think I could ever love him like that. It's just not in my heart for him. So now, after nearly 4 years, The final Frontier has begun! The fighting and the war on words is the beginning of the end for the Juan and Tina saga. He will look elsewhere for a wife as I will look to the opposite for things that I want. It's not neccesarily a husband , but if I meet him along the way that's fine! I have many hopes and dreams I would like to accomplsh, but if it's not in the cards from God, then If I'm gonna get married, I want him to at least be someone I can be head-over-hills in love with! So hold on to your helmets my people and let the games began!!! -Tina
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WoW! You made your point very clear! Sometimes being brutally honest is what it takes. We know sometimes we just can't have what or who we want and hopefully now, Juan will realize that as well.
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