LEAH REMINI (Former friend of mine)

Hello my precious friends! Wow! take a look at this picture of leah remini. I chose this picture for this story because this is one of the pictures from back in the day from when I was first introduced to her from her start on "Living Dolls". When I first saw Leah on "Whos the Boss" I thought she was hilarious! I thought to myself; She can't be acting, This is who she is in real life because her role didn't seem like acting to me, it just seem like someone being herself on television. I was instantly drawn to her and personality. So by the time "Living Dolls" was in sindication I found an address for "Living Dolls" and I wrote to her fast and within weeks I received a personal response from her! I was on cloud 9 that glorious day. I showed that picture off and everyone was so envious of me back then. I felt proud! Much to my surprise, her note to me suggested that we stay in touch...Now talk about turning flips and flipping out!! and from that moment on we kept in touch writing each other daily and eventually bumped up to talking on the phone. It was the best friendship I had in years because most of my friends, or lack thereof. didn't appreciate me or ook me for granted. i never asked for a friendship with Ms. remini, but I certaintly wasn't complaining. I acyually thanked God for that friendship because I didn't know what I did to deserve such a valueable thing. Eventually our friendship grew to what I described as "Sisterhood". Her fame or quote on quote "Title"n Hollywood was a thing of the past. I gained something from her I didn't see coming. We had little nicknames for each other and everything. I was "cookie" and she was "pip squeak". She meant alot to me. friendship is everything to me and I had that from her and that's all I needed. fame means nothing, Family and Friends do. Well, things took a turn for the worst when I went to Los Angeles for my 25th birthday present courtesy of my sister Greta. She knew it was my dream to go to Los Angeles and bought me a ticket there for a belated birthday present. I, of course alerted leah of my upcoming visit and she seemed excited, but I'm not really sure. We made plans to meet for the first time after keeping in touch for nearly 10 years. When I met her for the first time I was nervous, but I also felt like i was simply having lunch with a friend for brunch or something.....It was great! we had lunch. we talked. we laughed. The greatest moment of my life. She invited us to the set to "The King of Queens" to watch her rehearse, but that never happened because we couldn't seem to get in contact with her by the next day and she never called us either, so that was bummer for me, but we found something else to do instead. I thought to myself that maybe she'll call me at the hotel to let me know what happened. Nah, didn't happen that way. it wasn't untill the next day which was a sunday when i called her...It was then when she told me it was a closed set and that we couldn't come. well, I'm thinking that means nothing to me now, but I just brushed it off because i was feeling myself getting frustrated. so, I think asked what were gonna do that day and I told her that we were going to venice beach and she said cool she was gonna be there too, so we made plans to meet at a certain time. When we arrived at venice beach, I called leah on her cellphone to tell her we were there. she asked the location and told her. She replied, "If you're there, then you can't be where I am. She said to hurry because she had to leave by 2:00 I think, but I thought she should've come to us because we're new in L.A.. We didn't know our way around. She lives there so she should have come to the location we were at. So bing the desperate person i was, we seeked out leah but never could find her. i felt myself getting upset and emotional because I really wanted a picture with her because I didn't think of it a couple of days before, so i was looking forward to it. Since we didn't meet that day at Venice, i thought. well, If I'm someone Important to her, then she'll call me at the hotel to ask what happened......NEVER HAPPENED!!!! That was the point where I got really, really upset cause in my mind, i thought she didn't really care about me or thought of me as a friend as I thought. My heart began to feel heavy and weak. I cried. I threw things. i was deeply hurt. While in L.A., My eyes were open. I began to realize that we would we never be normal friends because somewhere in the back her mind she would doubt my sincerity, my friendship, My motive. I thought she'll never think of me as a real friend. It's not like when she's on hiatus from her show that she'll come visit me or invite me to visit with her. I felt that people were putting things in her head about me maybe making her doubt me. I don't feel Leah really listened to her own heart. Sometimes we can listen to so many negative things people put in our heads about others, tha we don't take the time to listen to what our own hearts are sying to us. I guarantee you that if leah had done that, things would be different between us now. I made the decision to let her go. You know that saying "If you love someone, let them go"? Well, I made the decision to let Leah and our friendship go because loved her enough to do so. I couldn't stand the thought of someone so precious to me even thinking the worst of me.I know I am a humble, loving, caring, kind-hearted human being and know I would never hurt anyone and especially a dear friend like leah. so I thought let me release any fears she may have about me or potential doubts put in her head about me and let her go. I hold no grudge to leah at all. I still luv her, but I don't bother. It doesn't mean i don't miss her. I did what I did out of love and what i thought was best for both of us. it was a hard decision to make because we had kept in touch for so long. But I didn't want her to think of me in a negative way and i accepted the fact that she would never do normal things with me as long as i wasn't in the entertainment business. it's easy for celebrities to be friends with other celebrities because they know that person is in the same business and ha no motive whereas, fan verses celebrity, They have to look over their shoulders wondering if we're real with them or not. I thought, it wasn't worth it anymore. Lunatics make It hard on us normal people who do have our brains intact to be trusted. It sucks. But in closing, i don't regret my friendship with Ms. leah remini. She's a wonderful person. She brought a smile to my face when no one else could. Our friendship was a blessing and i wish her many blessings with her friendships today. Friends are one-in-a million. When you find that "ONE", hold on to him or her and thank God for that blessing. It's important....really! Leah, if you ever read this, I wish you. your friends and family much happiness and many blessings. Hope my friends enjoy this story. Thankfully, it's set to private so not the whole world knows my bizness....U know what I'm saying! Lol! Untill next time, ciao!
-Tina