Never knew I could hurt like this

Hi Everybody. Well I'm back again to share my feelings with you all. Wow, living in a world where you don't even know your purpose, or why God placed you here. People, these are my thoughts exactly about my own life. I am grateful to be alive and well so don't get me wrong. But there are other things in life that can hinder you from true happiness. Sometimes you know what's standing in your way and other times it's just a mystery. I can honestly say I don't know what I'm here for. I don't know my purpose. I just live from day to day. After recently making the decision to give up my dreams, I never knew I could hurt like this. I feel so empty without them. I feel like a zombie unaware of my surroundings or what's in front of me. I must say that it was a hard decision to make, but are trying to accomplish my dreams really worth me breaking my heart each time I make an attempt to make them happen and have yet another door slammed in my face? Is it really worth the pain? I don't think so. I'm tired of hurting and the rejection I receive daily. Humf! I guess my title proves relevant that I never knew I could hurt like this. The pain inside me stings like a bee stung me and we all know a bees sting can linger. Well, this is it for now. ihope you enjoy.