Struggling In the spirit

I think we all can relate to this topic. The ones who want to do the right thing by God, but are struggling in the spirit because our mind is a battlefield between good and evil. I know that i am a great person inside and out, but often times things go wrong as they sometimes do and I get so angry and frustrated because nothing ever seems to go my way. You have good intentions behind what you do and that doesn't seem to get you anywhere. there are times I've felt like going out and doing hellified things in order to get what I want. Afterall, it seems people doing God knows what have dreams come true, money, wealth and or materialistic things handed to them on a silver platter, Oh, but I know better than that because that's just not the type of person I am. I love the lord and I want to do right by him, but God is a mystery. You can't always figure him out. I know we're not suppose to either, but why ask God for anything in prayer when he already has everything planned out for us regardless of what we ask for in prayer? Then at the end, we're disappointed because what we asked him for wasn't answered the way we thought it would or he simply said no to what we prayed for. I get so frustrated when this happens, because I feel like I made a fool out of myself in front of God and that's just not a great feeling to have. I must admit that I haven't had much of a relationship with God lately because of my frustrations. It's so difficult for me to talk to the lord when I'm feeling this way. Iknow that's when we should draw even closer to him in those times, but I often find that to be a challenge. I've never been able to do that. I'm working on it though. God help me. I don't blaspheme God because I know he is real and that he is a God that stands on his words. It's my own fault that I'm struggling in the spirit because I don't speak with him enough or leave my problems for him to handle or stay in his word. untill I learn to do that, I feel I'll always be the way that am. Stay strong in the Lord people even If I haven't. God is good and he will never leave you. It is us that move from him, not he other way around. Con todo mi amor, Siempre, -Tina