Life isn't fair......but that's life!!!!

Hello.....Here I am to share my thoughts and feelings once again. In my life I have experienced alot.....some ups, but many downs. I've wondered about my life or even questioned God wondering where is he when I'm in pain or angry or confused. I've been a dreamer since I was a very young little girl. Always wanted to sing and perform professionally, but was never able to accomplish any of it in my lifetime and my family didn't have the money to put me in classes to start me on my way on the path to my dreams. I've come close to having it all and I think I'm finally about to have my dreams in the palm of my hands, but then I take one step forward and three steps back and I'm back to where i started again. There is favor on some people on this earth and other's are cursed.....this being said by my best friend Mel. And i'm afraid that it is true. You can have the biggest dreams and desires ever, but there's no guarantee you'll ever have them.....For nothings promised to you. When we don't understand life or when we don't get what we want, We adopt pain in our hearts which later turns into anger and resentment. I have gone through this for as long as i can remember. I carry saddness everywhere i go and fear and confusion follows. I saw and endured alot as a little girl growing up and it has damaged me for life. sure I can overcome it, but reaching victory doesn't come easy for me. Life isn't fair.....but that's life! move on and deal with it. life is full of ups and downs and disappointments, but what can you do? You can not have what's not meant for you. So what do you do? You pick yourself up and try again. I have pouted. I have cried. I have prayed for God to give me the things that I desire. He doesn't really do that and i guess I don't deserve to have the desires of my heart and I can rspect God for that if that's what he chooses. I'm a sinner living in a sinful world. Life isn't fair....but that's life!!!! No need to whine like a baby because it's not going to change the outcome. What's meant for you will be yours. You can not force anything in your life unless it's a call on your life. Be strong my sister's and brother's. Life is tough enough. Let's just stand and unite and support one another.

Much love,
-Tina La rosa

"I dream no more"

It causes nothing but heartache and pain....

I dream no more....seems my dreams have all been in vain
I dream no more.....they're not for girls like me....All they'll ever be
is but a mere fantasy.

I'm sick & tired of feeling like this, but my dreams I shall surely miss.
saddness follows my every step, but this something I must accept.

As my tears flow, this is something I now know...My dreams I must set free
and channel my thought on something realistic, Something I know I can have....something more simplistic.

As i sit alone and ponder my thoughts, out of all the disappointment, there's something I've been taught and that is nothing is guaranteed...not even your deepest hopes and dreams. :( ~Tina La rosa~

"A ROSELYN SANCHEZ BREAKTHROUGH!!!"

This is the beautiful framed poem I sent to Roselyn that got me this response!!!

After many years of trying to contact "Roselyn Sanchez", I finally got a response from her today on Tuesday, August 26, 2008!!!

This is the beautiful photo she sent to me! I will cherish it cuz I may never hear from her again.:(

Finally after 5 in a half years of trying to contact my favorite actress "Roselyn Sanchez", I received a personal response from her. It's a dream come true although I had another response in mind, I'm grateful I even got this! It's bittersweet because I'm afraid I won't get this opportunity with her again.:(

Thanks for visiting my blog! enjoy and be blessed!!! -Tina La Rosa

"Sad....The people of the world today"

You know I'm baffled by the people of the world today. Kindness use to go a long way, but now it's just a slap in the face of rejection. I've been in situations where I could sense someone was hurting on the inside and played hidden agenda on the outside and wanted to do something to bring a smile to their face in hopes of getting their mind off of whatever was hurting them. I had a particular case like this once, and all I got for my kindness and the sharing of my heart was a slap in the face, my behind and everything in between. It hurt me so badly that someone could reject such kindness. It took me awhile to get over that incident. I no longer wanted to do good by anyone if that's the thanks I was gonna get, but Jesus said you should never get tired of doing good, and I don't, but it doesn't make it any easier to be rejected. Having a heart means nothing to people anymore and that just hurts me so deeply to the bone. Times have changed. People have changed. All that matters to people are themselves and that's all . It doesn't matter if you done something for them from the heart and with all innocence.....It means nothing. I've been coping with this situation for awhile now and I must say it doesn't get any easier in the beginning, but in time it shall fade away like the withering of flowers. I'm in pain and I am hurt. I'm so sadden by the people of the world today, No morals, No heart, No love for others, Just engrossed in themselves and their own lives. I'm so sad...The people of the world today, When the end times hit, all of this self-centeredness and love for self shall all fade away. Thanks for visiting. Tina

'what I want in a husband'

Ok so here I am back for another say in what I want in a man, that is when I am ready. Now that a certain someone is out of my life....I've been able to think more clearly about what I want in a man/husband. This guy that was in my life was an amazingly wonderful man, but not my type. I wasn't attracted to him which explains why I didn't feel comfortable with him touching me. Mind you that I was able to figure this little fact out once I ended things with him. I really tried to like him or even love him, but there was no place for him in my heart unfortunately. tried to force myself to like him and I soon discovered that the more I forced it, the more I disliked him. Understand this that LOVE has to be natural and from the heart and it is not something that can be forced. Either it's there or it's not......And it wasn't. I wish the best for him in his search for the perfec wife for him. He deserves it. I know what I want in a husband. He has to be a God-fearing Man, kind, loving, gentle-hearted, Independent, hard working, strong, hairless(I can't stand hairy men) Hispanic(Preferably puerto rican or costa rican like my brother mike), olive-toned, dark beautiful island eyes, nice lips and dark beautiful silky hair. He has to be a man who has his own thing going. A man that will respect my space as I will his. He has to have a sense of humor(To make laugh) I'm pretty quite so I need a man who has something to talk about. Something interesting where it would be easy for me to open up to. We have to EQUALLY feel the exact same way about each other and not just one person with all the love and feelings. It has to be an equall partnership. I am a difficult person to crack when it comes to love and I have to fall hard for you in order for me to give up my freedom and get married. Whom ever this man may be, I think he is going to be a lucky man, and I a lucky woman. I'm not quite ready yet, but I'm almost there now that I have cleared the way of any obstacles clouding my judgement keeping me from discovering who my real husband may be. Thanks for reading my blog! Blessings, ~Tina

SABOR LATINO

WHY DO I FEEL SO SAD?

Now tell me, Why do I feel so sad? I'm hurt. I'm angry. I'm frustrated. I'm in a situation where it's hard to adjust. I feel trapped as if there is no way out. So many things that are holding me back from the things that I want. I want to move back to Orlando, Fl, but my circumstances won't allow it...This frustrates me to the bone! I'm such the dreamer and I now hate that about myself because it doesn't get you anywhere. I have a good heart, but what does that get you......A brokenheart. So that's no good either. This is where feeling trapped comes in to play. There's no way out. I'm tired of dreaming and I'm tired of being disappointed. I'm tired of everything going bad in my life. So why do I feel so sad? I just told you. Thanks for reading my blog.

-Tina